Something struck me as odd the other day. I can mock and mimic the mannerisms of others, particularly my friends, but not one of them can mimic me. Sure they mock, as I set myself up almost every time-ridicule being the ultimate outcome-and so sacrificing myself for the sake of others. They don't see it this way, and granted maybe I shouldn't be thinking this way, but it's there; evidence exists of this, at most to the subconscious. Freud had a good start, but I would say that some of us think in our subconscious, to further what is given to our conscious mind; that on some deeper plane, nonexistent to those inside my own perception, I exist in passing thought; floating, moving about freely to play as I wish. Funny how these things work...oh these things. These things.
If anyone should read my drudgery, it would seem to them nonsense, which most of it is to the simples in this world. But I'm here to challenge the challenge that is reasoning-ever so mysterious and benign to those who lack the technique of reasoning. Be not mistaken by reasoning, for it holds power only in the mind where little reasoning exists, and in turn, divides rational and irrational thought, more supporting the irrational half because the ability to reason only comes in rational thought. I hold a certain compunction in my heart for those mortal beasts who lack the ability, the 'ableness', required to think rationally-the levelheadedness that adults tell their children all their lives to attain, even though it is something born, not gained, and truth holds reality to par, which is the reality that no one person in existence today (or any time period really) was asked to be given life, and so no one person was ever asked to be given irrational thought. The ensuing endeavor engages, then, upon the evident birth of perception, as Lacan offers to us as 'the mirror stage'-original 'Ah-ha' moment during our infancy-the point in which all the world begins to slowly collapse in on a being over the course of their whole life. If, at some time, that person doesn't recognize and choose to advantage their abilities of rational thought and 'distincting' their immediate reality, they will ultimately and inevitably be burdened with the weight of the world.
Are your shoulders ready for that kind of pressure? Obviously not (no one's are), but now having been reminded, and for some realizing for the first time as they read this text, it enables truth to be told, although truth itself (and awareness) makes one want to isolate themselves under the warm blanket of ignorance. But "NO!" I say. Do not hide, do not worry...embrace it. Exist in a world of self created chaos and confusion with the power of a better understanding.
We are at the forefront of life my brothers and sisters. So come my family, let us gather as one united people; as beings; as living, breathing, struggling, surviving beings, not without character, not without your own, still be your own, but find your own and be you to the best of your ability. We are all the in the same context...we are all beings who carry the same burden that is LIFE...we are all lifers to this world. But still, as I will repeat, find you and be you to the best of your ability...unassuming to the perceptions of Others. I am me because I am not you. MY job is not to worry about the other because they are different from me. MY job is to worry about being me, whatever that may offer to you is not my responsibility because of the simple fact that I'm offering everything to myself, and so reflects ME in this world, in this environment, in this time...here...now. YOU have to decide, knowing all that is you (hopefully, but if not, hopefully one day), whether you are going to accept all that is me as I offer me from the very beginning...
Hello, this is me...
Now...who the hell are you?
-Travis Ryan Barbour-
3 comments:
A very interesting discourse. i've always seen reality as a construct unique to individuals and the thoughts we have are part of that reality, so it seems to me that the collapse could be more traumatic than even you have described.
Yeah but that's something to be realized by the individual, not to be described in any particular sense because (as you have pointed out) the collapse is personal to that particular individual, not everyone else around them. Problem is, to some the reality is not really knowing reality, but living in their own reality ignorant to the existence of other realities. This reality is now my own downfall, or collapse, as I remain bitter to the ignorance of others just because I find myself to be more aware.
So basically where I'm going with this...is that I write shit like this because I hope to one day find others that think in this fucked up sense, although it is the only sense I have accumulated thus far in my life as making any sense at all. With both the burden and blessing, it is my bittersweet reality, and so shall be the reality that I provoke as it is the only thing that creates serenity for my tattered mind.
...you're definitely headed in the right direction though Mr. James.
keep it up
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